A Battle Against Depression - A Chapter From My Life !


The demon of depression mostly hits you just in the middle of the day , even when you are surrounded by your loved ones … and suddenly you are lost … lost in the darkest part of your inner soul trying to breathe …. but you really feel helpless …

The fight against depression is not for a day or for months ... it’s a continuous battle ...Today, I want to share my story … finally I got the courage to write it.

For most of you, the world is colourful but for me its all black and white or sometimes grey. 

Imagine yourself having a great day , surrounded by loved ones and suddenly like a thunder it flashes inside your soul. You feel empty, dark and hollow. You smile from outside, but inside you are even questioning your existence. 

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Why you are smiling? You are too fake!

Nobody loves you. 

Nobody needs you. 

This world is a better place without you. 

and the worst of all is .... 

No mom is better than having a mom like you!

that is how depression sounds like... when you , yourself is the worst kind of bully for yourself. 

For the world, you are the most kindest, sweetest and the most helpful person. But you are the meanest person for yourself and you can not help yourself with that. 

Shut up !!! that is what you want to scream, out loud to your brain .... but it never stops.... Depression is real my friends ... Depression is as real as you and me... 

So, next time if a person/friend/colleague sounds to be so happy at times and yet refuses to have an eye contact , always ready to help yet refuses to take any help... take a pause ... no please don't ask questions, just try to sit with them in the darkness. Even if they want to be alone... a hug is all that is needed... not any question as we might don't have the answers or even if we have , we might don't want to face them. 

Depression is little more than sadness, a little more than daily fatigue. Its like when you are unable to get up from the bed and face the world.When you are tiered all the time yet you are a workaholic. When you are so ready to help and solve everybody's problems yet feel so helpless to even share what you are going through and the toughest part is to pretend that its all OK when nothing actually feels like it.  When you can feel the pain, the slightest of discomfort felt by people around you, but yet you are unable to share what, why and how you are going through in life. 

When everyday is a battle, every single second of it. Life is not easy we know that. We are not being ungrateful, believe me we are not. Instead, we are the people who are willing and really want to change this world and make it a little less miserable for everybody. 

Today, I want to say this , accept this and I am not ashamed of it that I am a victim of depression. But, I am a warrior. I will fight out of it! Even when it feels like I should quit.... I will not .... and you must not as well. 

This post is definitely not written to gain sympathies or likes. It is written with an intention to let you know that if you are feeling all the above or even more, you are unable to help yourself ... I can hear you .. I can and believe me when I write this and say this I CAN feel your pain .. I CAN understand what you are going through... YOU ARE NOT ALONE ! 

Can you relate? Or you now somebody going through all this? Any suggestion you have ? Please do share <3

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